Yesterday Jesse and I went for a 4 mile trail run at Seashore State Park. The scenery was amazing....the run sucked. I made the mistake of slamming shots the night before with a few friends and running in 85 degree weather with a hangover does not bode well. Fortunately I made it through and actually ran fairly well. After the run we went back to Jesses' to meet with Sean and Chris as they were trying to do a separate workout. Crossfit.com called for a max Deadlift workout which I had never done before so despite running 4 miles in the heat, I decided to partake in the event. Chris started the lift and found his max lift to be 300 pounds. Just before Sean started, I drove to my house to grab more weights so we could push ourselves to our limits. Sean achieved a new PR at 350 pounds!!! I was extremely excited for the both of them but became very nervous before I started. I'd only done deadlift maybe 4 times before this workout and I was worried I'd either not pull much weight or I'd hurt myself. As I began lifting I found that I am stronger than I gave myself credit for. I achieved a new PR of 390 pounds! I am thrilled to say that the only reason I stopped at 390 is that we RAN OUT OF WEIGHTS! Every weight in Jesses' garage was on the bar as I Deadlifted it.
390 Pound Deadlift!!!!
Today we focused on two olympic lifts; the Power Snatch and the Split Jerk BTH. This was the second time I've done the power snatch so again I was nervous but came to realize that it wasn't as hard as I anticipated. I power snatched 135 pounds to set my current max. I am confident that I'll surpass this weight in a short period of time but I have a lot of work to do on my form and technique for this lift. The Split Jerk BTH on the other hand went very well. My previous PR for this exercise was 135 pounds and I was able to push 195 pounds today! I failed on my first attempt but forced my way through it on the second.
Working out seems to be the only thing keeping me sane lately. I've been spending so much time running or lifting that I've managed to keep my mind occupied as well. Hopefully I can continue this.....forever. I do not want to think anymore. I don't want to feel anymore. I just want to feel good about myself and my life again. Hopefully one day I will figure out how I messed up so badly. I have earned the position I'm in. I have to earn the right to get out. One day at a time.....
I will achieve my goals.
You are my goal.
"You are the anchor that holds me"
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