Shattered Deadlift PR!

425 pound Deadlift!

    I've set two new PR's in the last two days.  Shown above is my new max Deadlift  at 425 pounds.  My previous max was 390 pounds and although I'm excited for my new max, I'd like to say the extra 35 pounds I lifted yesterday were not easy.  In the video it shows that my form was not very good.  Your back is supposed to be straight and tight when "deadlifting" and as it shows mine was heavily arched immediately.  I definitely have some work to do but none the less, I still lifted it.  I'm hoping that within the next few weeks I can perfect my technique and form in hopes of breaking this record sooner rather than later.  

On Friday I was instructed to find my one rep max for "Front Squats" and I surprisingly lifted 265 pounds.  My previous max for this lift was only 205 so I was shocked I lifted so much more with very little trouble.  I'm getting stronger and I love it.  I'm consistently competing with Jesse in our workouts and even beating him in a few.  Thank god for crossfit, without it I may be in a ditch dead.

Today is Mothers Day and unfortunately my family isn't doing anything.  I was hoping we would go to dinner or at least hang out together.  The two cards I picked up for my Mom are sitting on the table unnoticed.  It's discouraging, but it's her day not mine I suppose.  I feel that I'm rambling on here.  I still have a lot to say but after losing it last week I inadvertently built a wall around my mind and heart and haven't allowed myself back in...I don't know if that makes any sense....I think I get it.

SCY's birthday is in exactly one week.  I'm not missing her any less but I almost wish I could.  I need at least one day with my mind and heart at ease.  I hope she's thinking about me, but I also truly hope she's not feeling as empty as I am right now.  My heart is telling me not to give up.  I've chased her before and I will continue to do so.  I know we will be together when the time is right.  Fate brought us back together in January, the rest is up to us.  "I" have a lot of obstacles to overcome before "we" can be.  I will not give up on this love.  I am becoming physically stronger and my mind will soon follow.  Hope will keep pushing me.