Heartbroken

SCY called me this afternoon at 2:17pm and told me that we were over forever.

Today has been rough to say the least.  I really have nothing to write at this moment.  Actually I have a lot to write, but right now I'm stable and I don't know if I can handle any hysterical moments again.  I am in love with a woman that will never have the support of her family if she is with me.  This hurts more than I can say....  I wish I weren't here.  I'm having some serious thoughts about saving everyone anymore heartache.  It seems obvious that all I do is cause harm.  My hands are shaking as I type.  I don't want to hurt anymore but I can not allow myself to hurt the few that care about me.  I'm miserable.  I love you SCY